HK is no longer the HK I know

Sorry guys, it’s been a long time, but there is something sad I would really like to share with you all about.

I am one of the applicants of HKSES, a scholarship scheme given to students who are trying to study overseas. I recently had a group interview, and I thought everything went on completely smooth, until one of the panel members started asking me questions about studying french instead of Chinese in my high school years. His name is Professor Tham from HKU. He tried to repeatedly deny me of my Chinese nationality, and he gave me the feeling of trying to rip my Chinese certificate in front of others, because he finds it bullshit. I explained my reasons, especially for the fact that I studied in an international school in primary, and the sudden shift of Chinese (mandarin to cantonese) was a bit difficult for me, so I had to pick french instead of Chinese. In addition to that, I have already started studying french in primary, so I find it as an opportunity for me to continue learning a new language – French. The professor insists on hinting me that I am a disrespect to Chinese culture for choosing French over Chinese, and he started putting words on my mouth, by saying that I ‘said’ Chinese is my foreign language. I was born and raised in Hong Kong, with my parents born in the same place as I am.


The racism is real when he denies me of my nationality, and hence my race. To say I am not Chinese when I am born in Hong Kong is a complete shame and embarrassment for a professor in HKU. I had to forcibly smile in the whole interview while feeling offended. He started targeting me during the whole interview. When other panel members asked me relatable questions about my future career, he would pin me down on my personal opinion and disagree with everything I said, but what he said was totally illogical, because he wasn’t listening to me, and he thought he was all good because he has the professor qualification in HKU. I was asked why I chose to study overseas and then come back to Hong Kong for my Masters’ degree. I said because I could then get the degree in 6 years time, while studying in Hong Kong would have given me only a bachelor degree in 5 years time. Professor Tham then started criticising me, saying that I would have job experience and gotten a degree in 5 years time, saying that I am taking the long route. But sir… I am talking about getting my MASTER degree in 6 years, NOT BACHELOR in 5 YEARS. Apparently, he hatred is clouding his judgment, and he has gone unprofessional during this whole interview. He’s been spreading racism, hate, and bigotry during this whole interview duration, and I feel really shocked.


You wonder why Hong Kong society is splitting apart, and the fact that many qualified and talented people are leaving Hong Kong, he is the answer. You wonder why HKU is now falling down the chart, and is looked down by Band 1 students? You know why. I cannot believe a professor from HKU will be filled with subjectivity and is trying to exclude me from my Chinese nationality. He truly believes that I am no Chinese. He’s been ‘criticizing’ me this whole time without even listening to what I said. A person born in Hong Kong not studying local Chinese is considered ‘disrespectful’ according to that professor, because in his mind, studying foreign languages like French is considered ‘betrayal’ to your own nationality. This is incredible. This is a professor of HKU, and now you wonder why HKU is falling down the charts? Because we’ve got professors like him with just qualifications to ‘brainwash’ students during classes. These so-called professors cannot differentiate opinions and facts, and they think what they say are facts, while others’ are pure opinions. He is so biased that he thinks what he said he is right, and he finds it amusing.

I find it idiotic.

You have your opinion, and your own choice. I have mine, and you should come to terms with the fact that you should respect my own decision and my personal opinion. I am trying to shorten all the time I need so I can get to work in real life as soon as possible, because I ain’t got the time, and I ain’t coming from a rich family.

I hope everyone remembers him, Professor Leslie George THAM from HKU, department of civil engineering. He is a shame to Hong Kong as an international city. He’s been putting words in my mouth, spreading hate, and bigotry in the room, and he’s been politically brainwashed. He may have the qualifications, but he ain’t no smart people, because the word ‘acceptance’ does not exist in his dictionary.

Don’t pee on my legs and tell me it’s raining. YOU’RE AN IDIOT! – Classic Judge Judy


Sunk Cost Fallacy – Rolf Dobelli

Chapter: Why you should forget the past: Sunk Cost Fallacy.

I was an economic student, so terms like ‘opportunity cost’, ‘full cost’, and ‘sunk cost’ are quite familiar to me. I recently read this chapter about people making decisions based on the sunk cost, which means something that has already be done and should not be considered as a factor when making decisions. The author made use of an example about he and his girlfriend purchasing a $30 ticket, just to find out later that the movies was interesting. The author suggested leaving the theatre, because the $30 has already been paid. The cost involved in making the decision, whether to leave the theatre or not, should only be based on the amount of time that they will waste if they had chosen to continue watching the movie.

It was interesting because a ‘normal’ person would have chosen to stay in the movie theatre, because he/she has already paid the $30, and leaving the theatre would decrease the value of the $30 ticket purchased. In fact, that is a fallacy. When deciding whether you should stay in the movie theatre or leave, the only factor you should consider is the future time. If you continue to stay in the theatre for another hour just to finish watching the movie, your full cost would be the $30 + one hour, assuming that you did not enjoy the movie at all. If you choose to leave, then the full cost would be lowered, the nominal value of $30 only.

So I guess what I am trying to say is, stop thinking about something that has already been done, but rather, think about something that might get worse or better in the future. This is how you become a smarter consumer, and a more rational person.


Social Proof – Rolf Dobelli

Social proofChapter: If fifty million people say something foolish, it is still foolish – social proof.

This chapter is a really interesting chapter, because the author did not choose to go for social beliefs, nor did he go against it, but rather, he picked a neutral stance in viewing social behaviours. In Hong Kong, you might have heard of the infamous Occupy Central or Mong Kok Riot (a.k.a. The Umbrella Revolution). It is quite appalling to know that many teenagers and adults find the action of throwing bricks towards the police as a reasonable or sane act. In their defence, people usually do something extreme, violent, and something that they will regret under an overexciting or rioting condition. Every one will get hyped up, but it’s the fact that some of them still find themselves a hero or a revolutionary symbol that frightens me. They rationalise their actions without considering any consequences or damage they might have done to the society in the long run. When thousands of people do the same thing (i.e. throwing bricks towards the police and setting things on fire, aka being a mob), it doesn’t change the fact that it indeed is nowhere correct, nor is there space for them rationalise or justify such actions. We often believe in something that we see, or the society wants us to see, instead of thinking with our own personal judgment. Yet, we can hardly be blamed, because under peer pressure, or social pressure, you don’t really have a choice. Well, this is what I am gonna say to you all, you always have a choice, but it’s the consequence and the result that you are unsure of if you could bear. Imagine having fifty friends who bully others, and one day they ‘ask’ you to join them with their ‘entertainment’, what would you say? You might think you don’t really have a choice, because you will lose your friends with a simple ‘no’, but I think you do have a choice. Saying no is your option, it’s your choice, and no one is forcing you to say so, not even the intangible peer pressure. All I know for sure is that you are unsure if you could bear what happens in the future without fifty friends standing by your side. You couldn’t accept or bear the sudden change to your life. If you want to be the well-educated person out there in the society full of evilness, I’ll say what the author is trying to say, be the person who thinks clearly and objectively, and do not always follow the social flow.


“If fifty million people say something foolish, it is still foolish”

–  W. Somerset Maugham

Swimmer’s Body Illusion – Rolf Dobelli

IllusionToday is kinda special, because I am reading a book called ‘The Art of Thinking Clearly’, written by Rolf Dobelli. the book contains the 99 delusions and psychological errors that we always face. Starting from today, I have decided to write a personal experience corresponding to each error it is written in the book. I would like to thank Mr. Dobelli personally for he taught me how to be a rational and reasonable person, without subjectivity clouding my fair judgment.

Chapter: Does Harvard make you smarter? – Swimmer’s body illusion.

The title says it all, does Harvard actually make you smarter? Mr Dobelli used the example of his friend, who is deciding which sport activity to choose from. His friend chose swimming at last, because of the attractive and muscle-building physique of the swimmers. Well, the illusion is that the attractive physique is what gets you selected to join the swimming team. It’s the other way around.

I study at a famous local secondary school, and it ranks top three in my hometown. There are often commentaries about how my school is the best, and it trains smart and intelligent graduates, preparing them for their future professional career (by professional I mean the jobs with high social status and hierarchy, like lawyers and doctors). Am I a smart kid? I think I am, but does the school actually make me smarter overall? Probably. But after graduating from my school, I realise what Mr Dobelli said was very true and authentic indeed. My school is famous because it possibly breeds smart kids, but it might also because of the children themselves, whom are smart and intelligent since the day they were born. They are already geniuses the day they submitted their application for my school. So does IVY leagues and Harvard matter? Yes to the extent that they give you a big step towards your profession, especially with the career opportunities and internship, but intellectually? I doubt it. With all those other factors kicked out of the equation, no, popularity of the school does not matter as long as you are a smart kid yourself.

“Before you decide to take the plunge, look in the mirror – and be honest with what you see. ”

Rolf Dobelli


College, where am I going?

So Do nothing.jpegrecently, I spent months talking and choosing colleges in the States. As an international student, I have difficult time concentrating in both academics and college decisions. Nevertheless, the identity as an international student is what made admission more difficult and competitive in the States. We are to be blamed indeed for pushing up the competitiveness and standards of the colleges. Sorry locals!

I applied to 12 colleges, including the IVYs and the prestigious ones, (of course the heaven-like colleges are included too). It turns out I am not as competitive as I thought I’d be. Well technically, I knew where my SAT score would get me, pretty much nowhere, but God probably pitied me, and decided to send me an acceptance letter from NYU!

I was happy for a second, until I recall the expensive tuition and accommodation fees. Even with the scholarship I am granted with, my parents could barely afford me to study in NYU. I had to give up the offer. Yet, I’ve never blamed God for playing me like a fool, because now I finally realised what I have always wanted to study for – nursing. Thinking about it, I am kinda glad that I didn’t accept the offer from NYU, because they admitted me for Bachelor of psychology, which could pretty much get me nowhere in the near future, especially for a person who would like to emigrate.

Then I got accepted to both prestigious Canadian colleges, McGill University and University of Alberta. Yet, I had to turn down the offer. This time, it’s not because I am financially inadequate, but it’s because they require freshman to study physics and M2 for Bachelor of nursing. It’s more like Bachelor of Science (nursing), which is a completely different program and course.

Now, my future path has finally revealed itself in front of me. Australia – Sydney. I thought I have wasted my time studying the SAT and TOEFL exams, but guess what? Nothing is ever a waste. University of Sydney (USYD) admitted me for Bachelor of Nursing (Advanced Studies) with my SAT scores.

I do believe that things are all destined, and sealed. There is no way to change our future, but how we want to proceed to our destined future. I still remember the time in November when I first applied to Cornell University and the heartbreaking rejection letter I got, come to think of it, it’s pretty dumb for me to actually feel sad. I didn’t believe those people who said “rejection is a part of a self-improvement.” I guess it is true now. From November to now June, these 7 months truly inspired me to become more mature. There is nothing to struggle or stress out with, everything has already been planned neatly the moment you were born. I’ve always wanted to study and live my life in the States, but see where I finally end up in, Australia!


I am back!

I am back

Hi guys, I haven’t written anything here for a long period of time. I just finished my public exams, and I am pretty worn out, but guess what? I am back! There are a lot of incidents that happened within these few months, from an argument with my dad about marriage equality to terrorist attacks in England, Thailand, France, The Philippines, and many more. Starting from today onwards, I will become more active in writing my blogs, so I hope you will still stay tuned to my recent articles!

Just a little heads up, so welcome back!

Public Examination! – English Tomorrow!

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My public examination has already begun! Right now, I have butterfly in my stomach. Tomorrow will be an English exam, including both reading and writing. After getting accepted to McGill University, Monash University, and New York University, I was busy celebrating and telling all my friends, like every Tom, Dick and Harry, this great news.

This will be my first time taking the exam, and I am so nervous right now, but I have worked out some subtle phrases, and writing formats. I’m ready to be the next William Shakespeare!

Wish me luck guys! I will inform you when there is something new coming up. As for tomorrow’s exam, I just have to dot the I’s and cross the T’s. Guess that’ll be the only way to excel in writing.


Acceptance – College decision


Funny right guys? You remember earlier when I wrote two blogs about getting rejected and all moody and sad? Well, today God decided it’s time to cheer me up. I don’t know what to say, but I am so happy and I am filled with joy!

I applied to New York University (NYU) and I finally got accepted. I haven’t gotten any notification with the Financial Aids yet, but I hope I will get a great sum of money to lessen the burden on my parents. I don’t know if I will end up attending NYU, because it is known for its high cost! But I am excited about my journey and what is going to lie in front of me! I want to thank God so much for reading my letters, although I hope I will get accepted other universities and McGill, so my parents have less financial burden on their shoulders.

Thank you all for your mental support. I can’t stress that enough. I love my teachers, and everyone who has helped me with the college application. I woke up today this morning thinking I will probably get rejected, but it came with a surprise.


God, if you are reading this, I hope you will help me get a higher sum of financial aid. My family really needs it. If not, I wish I could get accepted into other universities I applied to, including the Canadian colleges. I am not asking for more, I just want to reduce the financial burden on my parents. The other universities I applied to cost less! But either way, thank you for helping me and deciding my future path.

I love you all! See you later!! Stay positive 😀


Yours truly


College Rejection – (2)

Stanford is my last hope

Today I got another decision update from Emory University. Sadly, it’s another rejection, as I have expected.

I really don’t know what acceptances feel like. I was reading College Confidential, with people crying out that they got rejected to every single college they have applied to. The truth is, they didn’t really get rejected to all colleges, because they always have one that decide to accept them.

Early this December, my teacher predicted one thing, that I will end up having no college acceptance. I asked her why, she said because mostly international students do not get in unless they have something special, like very high SAT scores, with hooks. A friend of mine is an American and study in the same high school as mine. My school ranks first in my hometown. We have the hardest syllabus academically. He got lower academic rankings and grades, but he got accepted to University of Chicago, because his parents are both alumni, and he is an American.

US is the only place that I want to go, because of one thing, I want to set foot in the US and start building my new life there. I am a homosexual, and I know many other places do not accept people who they truly are. My second option is to go to Australia, because it is easier for immigration. However, what I am concerned the most is the fact that gay marriage is not allowed in Australia, simply speaking, I can never be the real me. I have not come out of the closet, and I was going to do that once I am in the US.

I applied to safeties, and reaches.


I got rejected from all 9 colleges, and still waiting for decision from 4. Two of them are Stanford University and Georgetown University, in which I know I won’t be able to get in. So basically, before the official decision update, I already know I am not making it to the US.

I can’t believe this is happening to me. I don’t really know what to do with my future now. I just want to feel once the happiness of reading an acceptance letter. I got looked down upon by my teacher, and now I can do nothing but to simply admit that she was right about me. I prayed hard every day to God, just to simply wish that He would listen to me once and help me out with the US colleges, but He never replied.

I don’t know if God will ever be there for me again. There is one thing I know for sure, which is that God is not a person who I just pray for to get my wish granted true, but for this once, I really need His help. If there is true miracle in the world, then I hope miracle does happen to the remaining four colleges.

I worked really hard to get to where I am today. Just because colleges are stupid enough to think that Bs and Cs are bad, that doesn’t mean that kind of mentality can be applied to all international applicants. In my school, I ranked top 10 even with a C on that subject. A friend of mine who ranked 150/250 in form got an easy 4.0 GPA in the US. He said he never studied, and still he got a perfect GPA score. The admission process is just horrible. I don’t know what to wish anymore guys. Sorry for being so negative today, but I couldn’t take it any longer.



Is GPA fair?


Hey guys, so apparently, if you have followed my blog for quite a while, you should know that I am trying to apply to US colleges as an international applicant. Recently, I discovered something shocking for me, the GPA recalculation in US colleges.

My birthplace has no such thing as GPA in high school, but we do in Universities. In high school, we only have A, B, C, D, E, and F as our grading system. Since my school ranks first in my birthplace, we have the hardest exam papers. So we our score range for A is 70-100, 65-69 for B, 59-64 C, and so on and so forth until you get below 40, which is an F. We do not have such thing as A+ or A-. You either get an A, or you don’t. If the US colleges use our standard’s grading system to recalculate our GDP, we are basically below average, but don’t forget the point that we have the hardest papers in my birthplace. I rank 20/252 in form, and 3/41 in class. I got a C in Chemistry, but in the SATII Chemistry , I got a 710 without studying, so you can tell the difference in the level of difficulty.

If the colleges do make sense, I am pretty sure that they won’t take my grades into recalculation and forcefully give me a false GPA. Yet, this is the only thing that bothers me a lot. When I look at my US friends who study Chemistry, they got As in their transcripts. I looked at their Chemistry paper and it is easy as heck, while our papers are mostly out of syllabus. I wonder if the US colleges will realise that point, rather than just kick me out for getting a C in Chemistry. You might think getting such a broad range for an A (70-100) means we should all get an A easily, this isn’t the case. Only a few out of 252 in my form can get an A in the core and elective subjects. This is what makes our school famous internationally and 1st in my hometown.

At the end of the day, it all comes down to SAT scores. But I don’t know if any other high schools in the US also face the same problem? Like they don’t have an exact GPA? Or they have a similar grading system like ours?

That’s the only thing that is bothering me a lot for my college acceptances. I hope the colleges I applied to will see this problem and not cut me off because of their misunderstanding.

Dear God, if you could read this, I hope you would help me out with the college acceptances. I just really wish I could feel the happiness of getting into one US college. Just one acceptance, it would bring me happiness for the rest of my life. Thank you.

PS. I got rejected to University of Richmond, and I want to remind you all NOT to apply to that college. That college is a huge greed. It only wants money. It literally asked me to pay 70K in order to get accepted. If you applied for financial aid to that college, prepare to get 0 financial aid. I know fund is what most private colleges want, but to give out acceptances according to financial affordability rather than one’s academic ability, that college is nowhere near to be called a college. So just a reminder for you all before you fall into the trap of applying and wasting your 70USD application fee.